A Matter of the Heart...

​Are you a person who is driven by your heart? 
 
Many people are driven by their mind. Their thoughts. Logic. Critical thinking. Whatever else you want to call it. And then there are those who run on emotion. Those who are driven by their heart and no matter how hard they try to override the heart with critical thinking, they find themselves beginning most sentences with, "I feel..."
 
My heart is at the very center of who I am, whether I like it or not. Many times it helps me to feel at peace when making tough decisions, or going against the stampede of society. However, there are other times when it leaves me feeling unsatisfied. As if wanting to lead me in a new direction against my own will. My heart often tells me, "you belong somewhere else", while my brain often interrupts with the list of hows and whys.
 
Many times I will hear people speak from their brain. They speak of the distant future versus the here and now, of security versus risks, life as it is versus how it should be, the impossibilities versus the endless possibilities, how they live versus how they feel.
 
And it is not to say that one is better than the other. In fact, what I find myself struggling with lately is how much freedom should I allot my heart? Because if I were to give in, I would quit my job tomorrow to pursue my dreams. Though that would likely leave me looking for a new job within a month. So what is the balance? Between our thoughts and feelings? Our brains and our hearts?
 
I wish I had an answer to share but unfortunately I do not. What I can say, however, is that we use what comes natural to us. For those of us who use more of our heart, that is the direction in which we should go. Of course we must be mindful of the balance however skewed it may be. When we find the right balance, that is when I believe we feel most at peace. That place being unique to each one of us. 
 
I will trust my heart more when I feel restless. Because that is the center of who I am. Yet I will always stay mindful of its boundaries, their limits ever changing.